Social Media Break: Day 20
I cheated! It’s not what you think. I didn’t open Facebook or Instagram but instead I went into Twitter. What the heck was I thinking?
I haven’t been on in years and the only thing I’ve done is connect my Instagram feed to stay active but I haven’t actually had the app on my iphone EVER!
Here’s what happen:
I ended up there on a research induced stupor because I’ve noticed that many writers use Twitter as their main social media outlet. And I was curious how they use it. I justified my logging in by saying I was only checking things out so I could see if this would be beneficial for me to connect with new people. I’m not quite sure what happen but 30 minutes later, I had scoured my sister’s feed and several other people that popped up when I first opened up the tab. It’s crazy how easy it was to get sucked into the endless scroll.
What happened afterwards was eye opening. I had to much intense time in front the a screen and realized it was affecting not only my mood but my body. After I caught myself getting caught up in it all, my body was screaming at me. My head hurt, my eyes felt strained but the worst part is that I felt that rushed anxiety feeling because I had let the negative energy from things I read take over my thoughts.
I saw a version of myself that I hadn’t seen in quite some time and she reared her ugly head. What came from this is the need to create a schedule and to be okay with shutting down said apps after 30 minutes. The key is to not get sucked in like I did yesterday.
In addition all my future posts must be written before logging in. Even tweets that are supposed to be spur of the moment must be pre-written so I can get on and do my most important tasks first. After that, I can allow myself to then respond and connect with people. If by chance I don’t get on one day or I don’t finish in the allotted time, I’m not going to myself freak out like I used to do.
I would rather be spending my time with my family, reading, writing, doing yoga all with a calm feeling. Yesterday was tough on my body and that feeling of tightness especially in my stomach is something I want to avoid.
I feel like I cheated on myself by getting onto Twitter but what I learned from this error in judgment was that if being on social media is going to mess with my body then it’s not worth it. Knowing how my body reacts to too much stimulation will allow me to know when to back off and be confident with the decision I make that is best for me!