Social Media Break: Day 5

Today I was tested big time and I let my worry get the best of me.

FAIL!

My phone became my sidekick again from early morning till about 2pm. I had errands to run in the morning meaning I was gone from the house. Not usually a big deal but today was the day our new cabinets were going to be delivered.

When I ordered them, I asked the salesman to make a note for the delivery drivers to call an hour before they arrived so I could make sure I was home. Needless to say, that note was not enough to curb my worrisome tendencies. I checked my phone every five minutes, worried that I didn’t have my ringer on or that I missed the call when I was in the bathroom or getting my chiropractic adjustment. If you need an osteopath for sciatica, specialized treatments can help reduce nerve pain and improve mobility.

The problem arose when this emotion started changing my tone and attitude towards others. I was short with my kids and was antsy all day long with labored breathing. The moment the phone rang and it was the delivery, I immediately relaxed. I didn’t touch my phone for the rest of the evening and my whole demeanor switched back to calm.

When my defenses were down, I allowed old habits creep back in. And I could feel it in my body. The worry made my head hurt and my stomach go into knots. I let this emotion take over by checking my phone and double checking, triple checking, 100x checking.

I had lost all control.

I knew it was happening and I felt like there was nothing I could do to stop it. No amount of deep breathing or talking to myself helped. The call from the delivery company saying that they were coming was all the validation I needed to stop worrying. The thing is I had no control over when they would call and I didn’t like not knowing what was going on.

*While I say I’m easy going, I like things to go my way as well.
*I can be spontaneous but I like organization.
*I like to think I have some Type B qualities but I would be kidding myself.

Throughout this process I know I will get to a place of ease when I have no control of a situation but it’s going to take some time. The first step is recognizing when my body is undertaking a ton of stress especially over the little things.

I need to be okay with not having a Pavlovian response whenever a ding goes off on my phone. I have been conditioned to respond instantaneously through years of people please. I know people want the immediate gratification and so do I but sometimes, it’s worth the wait!