No Eating After Dinner Challenge: Day 23 & 24
From the outside looking in, it looks like I have been slacking on my daily writing, only documenting every couple days. Truth be told, I have been writing, but about subjects that don’t really flow with the topic of food so it was inappropriate for this challenge.
Yesterday, I gave myself full permission to indulge on everything: food, internet usage and social media. When I woke up this morning, I felt that one day of this binge was all my body could handle. My brain hurt, my belly uncomfortable and my energy was wiped. It is clear as to why this was dragging me down creating unnecessary anxiety and worry.
It oddly felt like I was being naughty and that if someone caught me, I was going to be in BIG trouble. At some point, I was being sneaky with my phone usage because even I could see it was becoming excessive. I even broke the challenge for this month for the very first time and ate after dinner. I stayed up super late to watch Eat, Pray, Love giving time to digest.
At least that’s what I am telling myself.
As we head into Easter week, I will be diligent about the amount of sugar I ingest and by fueling myself properly. Sugar is definitely something I will need to cut back on down the road but I have a new habit I want to tackle first in April.
Since dealing with the addiction of social media and adjusting my eating habits, it is time to work on interpersonal connections with the people I love most. I am excited about the challenge beginning next week but for now the goal is to stick with not eating after dinner especially after having a slip up, albeit an intentional one, last night. Now is as good as time as any to focus on why I started these monthly challenges. To have better relationships with: myself, my obsessions, food and most importantly my loved ones.
I have drifted off course with social media usage the last week and letting FOMO loop me back into the obsession. The downward spiral effect could totally break the habit veering me off courses and back to square one.
It’s OKAY. The biggest thing to remember is to not be too hard on myself. Today is a new day and always a good one to get back on track, judgment free and not dwelling on the past.